ignoring

pretend to be ok is definitely not easy. i have to ignore that ringing thing in my head. ignore that slight pain at my left ear. but here somewhere i know this is still happening.

i’ve passed that blood test, that chest röntgen, even that head CT Scan. and the doctors really convinced me that i’m fine.
and i really need to believed it. so i work so hard to keep believing it.

maybe i should just put my mind to rest instead of blogging this paranoid theory which still slipped somewhere in my head.
“i guess i should go to sleep,” — Jack White.

well, it’s just a rambling post. made to be ignored. just like the title.. :)